Wednesday, June 3, 2009

3rd day...

So today is day 3 of being home...and after yesterday, today will be a total lounge day and probably meltdown day... you're guessing it... STILL NO progress... not even a 1/2 a centimeter of anything. It was all I could do to keep from crying yesterday. SO, the plan is, if nothing happens between now and Tuesday, we go back Tuesday (ON MY DUE DATE ) and will be checked again, which btw is very painful now, and if there's STILL no progression, then doc will induce me that Thursday (June 11; 2 days after my due date). I am so confused to why I'm not dilating or progressing at all. Guess it's just waiting time again... I do dread going into public though b/c every time I do I hear, "Awww bless your heart...you're still here/pregnant... when's your due date.. omg....any progress... etc...etc..etc..." each time i hear any of this i immediately want to either burst into tears or rip their heads off! haha... i don't even want to leave the house anymore... i mean i've not even gained any more weight & my stomach is still measuring the same...so she's LITERALLY just hanging out... I am even more frustrated now than before so PLEASE pray for my sanity and patience still... and for Josh's as well. I know he hates seeing me like this and it's frustrating to him too...
OH, but this weekend is a full moon so maybe she'll come this weekend, which is great but our best friends are leaving Thursday through Monday to go to the beach but if it comes down to it, they can meet her when they get back b/c I'm not gonna stop anything at this rate! haha... Sorry Wes & Ash! haha...
~God bless

4 comments:

Jodi said...

I know you are uncomfortable, but trust me - babies are a lot of work when they get here and they never stop needing you. Enjoy your quiet time by yourself because it will never be that way again. Babies are blessings from above for sure and your baby's birth will be the most wonderful, glorious day of your life, but don't rush it! I honestly thought the entire world should have stopped and recognized my oldest child's birth because my world had officially changed for the better! Anyway, my point is that time flies and the special day you are dreaming of will be over before you know it, so enjoy these moments of feeling that baby kick from the inside. You are a huge part of a miracle! Smile - just think of the money you are saving on diapers! Wishing you all the best for an easy delivery. Bunches of blessings for Bekah!

jill said...

i say you eat ice cream and watch trashy tv all day. just anything to take your mind off the waiting!

Jakesmommie said...

Girl, dont rush it. She will get her when she is supposed to. Jake was over a week late and they induced. It was much harder. I ended up with a csection. Dont worry about going out or doing anything. Take the last little bit to enjoy a quiet house.

Meredith said...

Bekah, know I am praying for you! I am sure you cannot wait until you have sweet Baby Shelby in your arms!