So today we are officially 6 months pregnant and I'm freaking out!!
I am waiting on STUPID JCPENNEY.COM to deliver
this pillow, that is NOT BLUE LIKE THE PICTURE ON OUR STUPID JCPENNEY.COM REGISTRY SHOWS; BUT IT'S PINK, from our bedding set so we can match the wall color so we can buy the paint and paint the walls. WE CAN'T EVEN BEGIN PAINTING TILL THIS PILLOW GETS HERE
THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE FRIDAY AND IS STILL NOT IN!!Can you tell the horomones have arrived?? OMG...
I'm freaking out not only b/c I'm 6 months pregnant but because we have nothing accomplished in the nursery but the furniture in place and we're registered. THAT'S IT! SHELBY WILL BE HERE IN 3 TO 4 MONTHS AND WE HAVE NOTHING but free formula & coupons we've gotten in the mail that will last us maybe a month, if we can't breastfeed, a few onesies that we've bought and some stuffed animals. THAT'S IT! FREAKING OUT... OMG.. OCD IS KICKED IN FULL FORCE AND BEING OCD AND CREATIVE IS not good these days. I'm CONSTANTLY flooded w/ things I MUST paint, make, sew and create for Shelby and NONE of it's even half-way started or thought out. :( I"m seriously about to need medical assistance or be admitted to the looney bin.
I pray for help but I'm also the type that I like to do things myself because I then know they're done the way I want them and I'm satisfied. I have a hard time letting others do things for me. Control issues? Naaahh.. not a bit.
Also, I'm beginning to realize that Shelby will have to come out and that's freaking me out even more... It's like I'm on speed today...
I need a brain-nap...
OH and I just got home from my 6 month OB appointment and all is great, Shelby's heartbeat was 151, first time I REALLY heard it (the other time, it was soo faint I lied because I was the only one...haha... that was like 3 months ago though..haha). BUT.... which THIS BUT is still making me cry....
I'VE GAINED
10 MORE POUNDS SINCE MY LAST VISIT!! As of last month, I had only gained
7 Lbs TOTAL, now 10 POUNDS IN A MONTH?! OMG, WHAT DO I DO?? I'M STILL CRYING AND NOW DEPRESSED. :( My dr. was NOT happy w/ me and Josh is gone so... JUST SAD NOW :( I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO slowin down now. That's INSANE... Shelby only weighs 1 1/2 lbs so it's not her :(. Ugh....
PRAY FOR ME AND JOSH'S SANITY! oH, ALSO PRAY for Josh. He's gone on a business trip today through Thursday so he can't come to my dr.'s appt. but my Mammy is coming (Josh's mom). So this will be her first time seeing Shelby. :) I would take a belly pic today but given that I'm now upset and depressed over my gain, I just can't do it today.... lol
~God bless