Tuesday, February 5, 2013

5 days and counting..

OMG... 5 days and counting 'til I'm.... ugh this hurts to see....

wow.... this is hittin HARD Y'ALL!! I don't really know why..... I don't feel older (which I'M NOT YET.... NOT TIL SATURDAY THAT IS...)..... I DO feel different though.  Don't get me wrong, I WOULDN'T TRADE MY LIFE I HAVE NOW for anything and BELIEVE ME, I DO NOT WANNA BE 20 AGAIN... If I was turning 20 instead of 30 I would not be married, not have shelby, not have the blessings God has given us now, know what I know now, know what NOT TO DO now, have the wonderful support system I've been given and cherish now, and MANY MANY MORE blessings and life lessons.  I'd be a stupid, "think" i know it all and have it all figured out, naive, immature, confused, 20 year old... wow....30 isn't sounding so bad....
I think what's gettin me is that I've always been the "20-something year old" in our circle and now i'm joining everyone in the "30-something year old" circle and it's difficult! I'm not set apart...but then again I am because Jesus tells me, in
1 Peter 2: 9-10,
"9 But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are God's people; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy."
I am  proud of who I've become in my ALMOST 30 years and amazed at where God has brought me from and the journey I've been on so far.  I can't wait to see what He has in store for us and for me.  I do feel like my 20's were a growing period and being ALMOST 30, I feel more grounded and secure in who I am and who I'm called to be.  I've not totally found myself but I'm gettin there... I do know that I'm a child of God and that's NEVER changed...I just see it more because I'm open to it now in my "wiser" days.. :)
just a lil pity party vent on turning older.... Saturday will be great because I will have my wonderful family God's given me, my hubby home, Shelby and all her lil vivacious and fun self, and another year to enjoy it! :)

1 comment:

Sandi Burns said...

I did feel "un-young" when I turned 30, worse than 40 . . . but coming up to FIFTY! I realize that all the people I ran around with have the same problem, they have birthdays too!

LOL! Just think you have never been 30 before . . . it will be your very FIRST time on Saturday. So make it the best 30 EVER!! Love you sweetie!