8th day/Game Plan

***UPDATED***
So I feel a lot better now after talkin w/ my dr's wife, my 2nd momma. She assured me that I would NOT be sent home and that he would not let me suffer through that. He just had to say that I guess. :) Ahhhh... totally ok now... Ok, just had to update. :)


So today is my 8th day on maternity leave and yesterday's dr's appt. was good. Good that we found out the "game plan", not so good b/c I'm STILL not dilated AT ALL, not even the slightest bit! So, the plan is...
We are being admitted to Wadley hospital at 7:30 a.m. Thursday, June 11th to start the induction process! :) Yeah!!! He's gonna insert this pill into my cervix, which I've read and heard about cervidil and pitocin but never a "pill", and I'll have to lie flat on my back for at least an hour then I can sit up or walk around, and after about 3-4 hours doc will check to see what's progressing or not. By then I should be having some contractions THAT SHOULD help me to dilate. He will evaluate that and the baby and depending on how that goes, he'll either let it continue or go to the next step. If the baby is in distress in anyway, he'll opt for a C-section and if she's ok and I'm ok and no progress for a lengthy amount of time, he could send us home and wait it out. OMG, I SOOOO DO NOT WANT THE 3RD OPTION! I was under the assumption there were only 2 options: Induction or C-Section, not "going home w/ her still inside!" OMG... so that's my recent issue/worry. Please pray that the meds work or that if they don't I can convince him to just do a c-section b/c I CANNOT take another week or day like this. I AM BEYOND MY BREAKING POINT AND TOLERANCE LEVEL OF DISCOMFORT. I know I'm complaining but yesterday it was 91 degrees so to me, that's 191 degrees and to top that off, I'M 10 MONTHS PREGNANT AND NOW 1 DAY OVER MY DUE DATE so I think I have the right to complain a little...
Today's agenda, as much as I don't want to do any of this and just lie on the couch all day, is to clean the house b/c WE KNOW there will be TONS of visitors and I don't do well w/ visitors and a messy house; clean out the left-over-dishes in the refrigerator AND make a bumper for the 100 year old cradle my parents brought over that was my grandpa's cradle that he, my mom, my uncle, me, my brother and pretty much every child that was dedicated into the church up until 10 years ago were all rocked in. My mom made sheets for it and I'm making a bumper for it b/c the bars are too far apart and her head and limbs could fall between them and we don't want that. She's gonna sleep in it in our room for the first few weeks. It's beautiful and in EXCELLENT condition! I'll take a pic of her in it. It'll be more beautiful that way!
Well, today's my last post for a bit, I'm afraid. I'm not taking my laptop to the hospital b/c I feel like we're "moving in" there already w/ the suitcase, toiletry bags, breast pump bag, boppy pillow, diaper bag, and 2 pillows... that would be one more added bag and too much! So, we are taking the blackberry and so if you have a facebook, we'll be updating on there, I'm sure! Look me up (Bekah Kee)! Several of you have already and thanks for that! PRAY PRAY PRAY.... that's my last request!
~God bless and HOPEFULLY will be posting next w/ a baby in my arms,

7th day...

well, today is my due date and I'm STILL HERE w/ baby inside. lol. No progress or feeling of progress at all. We go to the dr. today at 3:45pm so after that, I will try to post an update of what the "game plan" is. I do have a feeling that I'll hear, "Still no progression," and I'm fine with that but knowing that we will know what day, what time to arrive, what kind of delivery we're looking at, etc...will be comforting and relieving to know. I can't wait!!! Everything is ready for Miss Shelby. :)

I also got great work news yesterday that I am going on a 9 month contract as of THIS July 1! :) yeah!! So I will be able to be off w/ Shelby during the summers from now on! I also didn't realize that it would start this July so we were expecting no paycheck for me that month since I'd be on maternity leave but now, we will be getting a check for me! :) God is soooooo great!

Well, keep us in your prayers! I did sleep well last night, or better at least. I'm just anxious and ready to go to the dr. today! I cannot believe I'm 40 weeks pregnant today and that it's June 9, 2009, my due date and Shelby is not in my arms or the cradle next to me while I post. She is definitely showing us who's boss! haha...
~God bless,

6th day...

So today is my 6th day on maternity leave and last night was rough. Josh and I didn't sleep at all. I got in the bed, after trying to sleep and moving onto the couch watching TV and trying to get sleepy there and then back to the bed, at 2:30 this morning. I felt awful b/c Josh had to get up and be ready for work by 7 a.m. My mind was just flooded w/ thoughts and realizing that this is the last week I'll have Shelby all to myself kinda freaked me out. I guess I'm not ready to share her yet, other than with Josh that is. I like being the one that truly knows her and feels her but I am totally ready for her to be out and being able to move and function normally again! haha...please pray for us this week. My anxiety level is getting rather high and emotions as well. I've already cried this a.m. b/c there were these people in our front yard cutting our grass and edging and they woke me up, for what little sleep I had (they cut our grass like 10 days ago and just SHOWED UP again today and started w/o even callin Josh or ringing the door bell, etc...) that and then realizing that this is the LAST monday as "bekah the 40 week pregnant girl." haha.. it's so unreal to believe that this is our last week as just us and that this time next week we'll have a little baby girl in the house and in our arms. I cannot imagine the emotions and love that is going to pour from us in just a few days. Josh seems to be totally cool, calm and collected, FOR NOW, but me... TOTALLY NOT...haha.. We go tomorrow to the dr. so we'll know what the plan is and when to expect Shelby's grand entrance :)... I'll keep ya updated! Add me on facebook just in case I cannot update the blog from Josh's blackberry!
~need your prayers & God bless,

Our last sunday...

So this is our last sunday as just the 2 of us and it's my last sunday for a while as a worship singer with Josh and Beth Anne and so I was totally determined to go to church this a.m. ( I didn't go last sunday b/c i felt horrible) and tonight. I did feel woozy and faint-ish getting ready this a.m. but I managed and so far, so good! I got to sing and worship God and be in His presence and house for the last time as just me with this little princess inside. God is soo amazing and He is sooooo good to us. Our service this a.m. was amazing and tonight will be just as great AND we're having an ice cream supper after church so that's EVEN BETTER! HAHA...gotta love ice cream!!
It's so hard to believe that this time next week we'll have Shelby here in our arms! I am getting nervous, scared and anxious about the delivery and wondering how she'll come (naturally, w/ an induction or by c-section) but that will probably be answered tuesday when we go to the dr. for my last prenatal visit. :) If there is still no progression then my dr. is going to induce me Thursday and so we are just in prayer for a safe, healthy delivery, whatever that may be and include, and that Shelby is here in our arms! :) I am a bit scared though, as anyone would be, but MY GOD has this in His hands and He tells me to not worry or be anxious in anything...so that is my focus and my goal...as hard as this is.... :) Please pray for us this week...this is going to be such a great, memorable, LIFE-CHANGING week!
I hope i can post updates from Josh's blackberry at the hospital on here but if not, i'm on facebook and can post easily on there so if you want, look me up on facebook (Bekah Kee)!
~God bless,

No baby yet...

So it's Saturday night at 9:58pm here in good Ole Magnolia, Arkansas and we just arrived home from Texarkana, where we'll be having Shelby and where I'm from and my family lives. Our weekend getaway was great! We realized today that it'll be our last weekend as just "Josh and Bekah" so we took full advantage of it! It was great! And by me posting I'm sure you're realizing that Shelby is not here yet. haha.... I have had some pretty severe contractions tonight but nothing else. Also the moon appears to be full but is supposed to be REALLY full tomorrow night so we'll see! Everyone keeps telling me she'll come on a full moon. We'll see.... haha... We do at least realize that even though there still maybe no progress and it may remain that way when we go Tuesday, that Thursday, regardless, we'll be induced and regardless of if we have her natural or by c-section, SHE'LL BE HERE and our world will change!
Just wanted to let you all know that we're still here and she's still KICKING/JABBING/PUNCHING in there.. :)
~God bless and love ya, nighty night....

5th day...

Haha... still here... 5th day of maternity leave...but ya know, as miserable as I am, I'm ok. I did a lot of searching within yesterday and swinging outside in the nice, probably last, cool day here in Arkansas w/ my first baby Dee Dee (our doggy). Regardless of when Shelby coms it is GOD'S PLAN & WILL not mine. That I knew but had forgotten and refused to accept.
Josh and I are going for one last getaway this afternoon and staying in Texarkana, just to be safe since that's where we'll be delivering and where I'm from. I am looking forward to us just being "us" and getting away to do what we want.
Oh, I received this pic today from a friend I made a bag for that was giving it to a friend as a shower gift. Is this not the sweetest pic you've seen?! I can't wait to take a pic of Miss Shelby w/ her bag :)!

~God bless & have a great weekend!

4th day...

WELL... yeahp, still here at home w/ nothing goin on, that I'm aware of. It's the 4th day of my maternity leave and 5 days till our due date and I'm honestly discouraged because I JUST KNEW I'd have a baby to rock, feed and cuddle by now but I'm still in pain, no sleep, and barely able to move. I know this is the horrible hormones talking but I'm soooo tired of people saying, "She'll come when she's ready." Like I don't know that... I apologized before...warned ya... I know she's gonna come when she's ready and that I should "rest, enjoy the time you have now, etc..." well I'd like to but I cannot sleep b/c I'm in such pain if I lay in a certain position, sit or even stand for a length of time, and every moment seems to be filled w/ pain and discomfort. I've not gained any more weight and my belly is not any bigger than it was a week ago so there's LITERALLY no more room for her and the more I see that, the more upset I become. I am just having a 'down day' and am no directing this to any individual. Just pray for my sanity....haha..and josh's..haha

3rd day...

So today is day 3 of being home...and after yesterday, today will be a total lounge day and probably meltdown day... you're guessing it... STILL NO progress... not even a 1/2 a centimeter of anything. It was all I could do to keep from crying yesterday. SO, the plan is, if nothing happens between now and Tuesday, we go back Tuesday (ON MY DUE DATE ) and will be checked again, which btw is very painful now, and if there's STILL no progression, then doc will induce me that Thursday (June 11; 2 days after my due date). I am so confused to why I'm not dilating or progressing at all. Guess it's just waiting time again... I do dread going into public though b/c every time I do I hear, "Awww bless your heart...you're still here/pregnant... when's your due date.. omg....any progress... etc...etc..etc..." each time i hear any of this i immediately want to either burst into tears or rip their heads off! haha... i don't even want to leave the house anymore... i mean i've not even gained any more weight & my stomach is still measuring the same...so she's LITERALLY just hanging out... I am even more frustrated now than before so PLEASE pray for my sanity and patience still... and for Josh's as well. I know he hates seeing me like this and it's frustrating to him too...
OH, but this weekend is a full moon so maybe she'll come this weekend, which is great but our best friends are leaving Thursday through Monday to go to the beach but if it comes down to it, they can meet her when they get back b/c I'm not gonna stop anything at this rate! haha... Sorry Wes & Ash! haha...
~God bless

2nd day....

Well so today is my 2nd day off and we are officially 39 weeks and my little ticker above freaks me out saying "only 7 days left!" OMG.... we go to the dr today so it maybe less than that! We are taking all our bags packed just in case. I could not sleep last night and had some pains pretty much all night so who knows... if there is no progress we're gonna see what our options are! I will keep you posted!
I guess the reality of Shelby possibly being here in the next day or days is settling in and it seems sooo unreal... I'm trying to prepare myself for whatever the dr says but I know there's no way to prepare ourselves for what we'll feel when the time is here. Poor Josh, he seems to be on pins and needles and has his phone w/ him like it's apart of his hip. Every time it rings I can just see his face. haha... who knows... keep us in your prayers! I'll try to update, depending on what the dr. says, later this afternoon after our visit. :)
~God is good and be blessed,

1st day...

So today is my 1st day on maternity leave and so far so good! I've felt great all day, considering I haven't all weekend. I've had this horrible cold and it's gone from a sore throat, to a head cold, to stuffy nasty nose, to being hoarse and now to a chest cough. So, on top of that and being (officially) 39 weeks pregnant tomorrow, it's been a doozy of a weekend. I've been having contractions off and on all weekend and they've been a lot stronger but not close enough together to get excited about. However, today, I've had a few contractions off an on but I've felt GREAT and in fact, I just finished cleaning the WHOLE house. Could this be that 'burst of energy' I always hear about; the "calm before the storm"? Who knows....
We go tomorrow at 3:45pm for my weekly dr.'s appt. and we're taking all our bags packed and what nots just in case. We're hoping for some progress but if not, we're gonna see what our options are. Tomorrow will be one week till our due date so... I DO NOT wanna go past that or really even that far, but we'll see what doc says. :)
Oh, I decided to make a slideshow of the maternity pics Stacy did so I can see them all the time and not have to refer back to a post. :)